Today is good day. Today I got one step closer to the life I am trying to create. (Today was actually OCT 5). There were approximately 700 applicants for the program. 180 have been shortlisted. I am one of them. There are 96 seats for the Jan start, so I'm still treading in deep waters, but trust me when I tell you the excitement I am feeling right now, is something I plan to hang on to until the bitter end. I want this so badly, so I stay positive and do everything in my power to try and will it into my reality....and yet it is so far out of my control. What if I get in? lol. It's just that all my hard work is 'almost' paying off. I have to write a letter of intent and collect my references....HOLY COW!!! shortlisted.....finally! I almost didn't write this entry because I didn't want to jinx my chances...stupid huh? I have learned from my little princess that every achievement deserves celebration. Being in the top 25% is certainly an achievement. I can do this! I've got this....and if I don't get in...which is ridiculous....I'll get 'em next time.
I started receiving emails last night that some of the other members on my regular forums had been shortlisted....i started to panic. "where is my letter", "why haven't I been shortlisted?"... "oh no, they don't want me"....the mind is an amazing thing. I totally created this alternate world where they were picking from the best to the worst and I was not even going to get a letter at all. This morning I woke up, checked my email every 5 minutes for about 3 hours then decided I couldn't take it anymore. I emailed the contact I had in the Nursing department, told her I felt sick to my stomach about it, and asked for any insight she could offer. She said many nice things including that my application was well received and I had been shortlisted....also that they were going in alphabetical order :) not the best to worst scenario I had invented.....I have had butterflies ever since. I picked up Paige early and took her on a dinner date to celebrate. I'm still in shock a little bit but so grateful for this acknowledgement. Just being considered, I feel, validates most of the long hours I have put into my studies. MOST, not all. :) Staying positive that things will work out in my favour
xoxo
