Really?

I bought some books today for the program. 360 bucks from craigslist, for 6 or 7 books. I feel really sick. It is starting to sink in that I actually have to start school full time in only 1 month....I am so nervous. Being accepted  was such a huge relief and a big accomplishment considering where I started, but now I actually have to do it! Lately I have been feeling very confident, ready, and eager....then I saw the size of my textbooks :( I might throw up....It's 3 years....that's a long time!......I also have a big final exam on Saturday, I leave for Disneyland on Monday and another big final when I get home....not to mention I am still tired from Vegas (I know I know, what a rough life ;) I tell everyone that I can do it, that I am ready, that I have no worries about school...but really? It's terrifying. I am 29 years old and I am throwing myself into one of the most intense Nursings programs out there! Will I have enough time to work?, to play with my princess?, to snuggle my man? to even have a shower??? It's fear of the unknown...that's always been the issue. Once I'm in it, it will be ok....right?? I mean people don't die from Nursing school......

My baby turned 6 last week. We had a wonderful party and she was a perfect hostess. yikes...I suppose if 6 years can go by at the speed of light, I will manage 3. She seems to be growing everyday, I feel sad that I have to miss even a moment of that. I try to think about all of the fun times we will have when I work 4 on 4 off, get paid holidays, and make enough money to take her travelling. I'm doing this for us....kind of hard to explain to a 6 year old.....One day at a time......One day at a time.....

I'm In!

I'M IN! I'M IN! I'm in a little bit of shock still.... On Friday October 28 at around 445 pm, I received the email notifying me that a seat has been reserved for me and as long as I supply the outstanding documents (Birth certificate, WHIMIS, CPR HCP, fit testing, Immunization review, medical form, criminal record check) I will start the Nursing program on Jan 9 2012... I am sooooooooo excited! I bought 3 pairs of scrubs today, which I will need for simulation labs at school and  my clinical rotations (which start week 2!) I brought my immunization form to BCIT health services and had the Nurse go over it with me. I was sent to get some blood work done to check my Hep B immunity to see if I need that series of shots, and I was told that I will be getting a booster in January. I have already completed CPR training and am just waiting on more instructions for the WHIMIS and Fit testing. I am so excited and totally nervous. I applied  (and was approved) for a tuition deferral since my student loan won't kick in until Jan. I am in the process of figuring out after school care for little P, since Kids club is only available Mon-Wed.... Hopefully her Daddy can help out Thursday and Friday if needed.

I am really trying to focus on my 2 courses that are in progress, but am finding myself getting easily distracted searching for videos on IV start ups, and Neonatal Nursing. Sadly my Family/Maternity clinical isn't until 2nd year...but I know I have a lot to learn before then! I know I am capable of anything, but the task ahead is a little overwhelming. Full time school, plus work, plus being a good Mommy, plus keeping myself healthy....It will be a bit of a balancing act to say the least.

In the next 9 weeks (and 4 days) before classes start, I have planned a 4 day trip to Vegas with #1 sis, a 5 day trip to Disneyland with #1BF, and #1Kitty, Paige will turn 6, Christmas is coming fast and bringing a much needed visit with #1Mommy, I have to spend 1000 bucks on textbooks and attend orientation on Dec 15, 2 final exams...each worth 30 percent of my final grade.......plus I have to work, lose 5 pounds, organize a study space for myself and try to relax before the whirl wind of Nursing school hits!
Wish me luck? I am gonna need it!
xoxo
Alana (officially a Nursing Student)