Level 2 done!!! Almost….just 3
exams, 1 clinical shift, 1 more exceptionally fun Wednesday-ugh- and a total of
1 week before I am lounging by the pool in Arizona
This term has gone by soooooo fast.
I have learned so much as far as skills and med surg goes…..dressing changes,
IV meds + maintenece, injections, ostomy care, post op assessments, and I have
built on my critical thinking skills! I am so excited for level 3 and all the
new experiences it will bring….
I have learned that I hate writing….not this
kind of writing, because clearly I love this….but APA, and research articles,
and emotionless, subjective data…blab la bla….not my forte’. I have also learned
AGAIN to trust the world (see below), and am reminded why I am here.
Paige is getting bigger by the
second. She is oh so sensitive (thanks to you know who), and passionate, and
strong willed. She is very bright and she feels life at 150%....We are working
on how to respond to those big feelings, and as we were discussing it, I
couldn’t help but think….she is 7! I know grown-ups that don’t handle their
emotions effectively…it’s hard! She is trying though, and I have been trying to
spend extra quality time with her too.
Even with a week left in school, my
mind is in Roatan. What a tough choice I have to make….and I know you all have
your opinions, but in the end, it’s only me who can decide if I bring Paige
with me….I want to be at the clinic helping now….
5 more months seems so far away. I have started collecting donations to take
with me, and if anyone wants to help with supplies, I can forward you a list of
meds/supplies needs. And thanks again to everyone who came to support my fundraiser.
I am so humbled by the generosity.
My Christmas tree is glowing and
the fire is plugged in J I better focus on microbiology for a while, or I will regret it
in the morning.
My Christmas Wish
Dear humankind:
I want a world where the air I
breathe doesn’t give me lung cancer, where the food I eat is not made of
chemicals, where people on the other side of the planet… eat just as freely as
I do. I want a world where hate, crime, revenge, torture, and greed have no
place. I want a world that revolves on love, and community, and health, not money
and control….I want a world of peace, a world of higher understanding. I want a
more evolved population to have more power, and not because they stole it from
the powerless, but because, through truth, and faith, and love, and hope…they
accepted the power of one-ness. …. I want those destroying our planet and taking lives at will to hear the message- I am not
separate from you, and neither is anyone…so stop the hate, stop hating and try
forgiving. Start with yourself…..I want peace, a little peace…please…..And just so you understand, I don’t just ask this
of you, but I too must live the reality that I want to create, so I give
freely, my time, my love, my money, my truth and ask nothing from the world in
return, because you see my simple act of giving these things is a statement
that I indeed have enough….and I do, always ….all ways I have enough.
In the past 60 days I have received many
financial blessings. Just before that, I had nothing….well it felt like
nothing, the bank account was looking a little bleak… but instead of
complaining, cursing the world, and hanging on to my last pennies….I
gave them away. I gave it all away and said “it’s ok, I have enough,
in fact I have more than enough” and so I do. These gifts from the universe….I
will also give away…..I will go to a place filled with people who have way less
than me and I will give them whatever I can...my time, compassion,
hope, love…for free…. because I have enough…..because you see, we all have
enough. That is the big secret…..There is enough to go around , if you believed
that…..really believed that, you would be free. Free from worry and free from
hate. Trust. There is enough love, so stop strangling your
lovers. There is enough money so stop the penny pinching...try donating!. There is enough
time…..slow down. Thoughts are a
powerful force and once set in motion, they go on to create the energy that
shapes your reality. You are enough….trust
that. One person can change the world, and one simple act can change a
life. Together we are that “one”.
Christmas is coming. Paige will be
celebrating with her Dad. I think, if I am not working at the pub, I will do
something useful….give back……because as I reflect back on the many blessings of
this past year, it is very clear that I have received, in abundance, the true
gifts in life….time, love, moments, memories, and hope....
Xoxo
Alana-Student Nurse
