Really?

I bought some books today for the program. 360 bucks from craigslist, for 6 or 7 books. I feel really sick. It is starting to sink in that I actually have to start school full time in only 1 month....I am so nervous. Being accepted  was such a huge relief and a big accomplishment considering where I started, but now I actually have to do it! Lately I have been feeling very confident, ready, and eager....then I saw the size of my textbooks :( I might throw up....It's 3 years....that's a long time!......I also have a big final exam on Saturday, I leave for Disneyland on Monday and another big final when I get home....not to mention I am still tired from Vegas (I know I know, what a rough life ;) I tell everyone that I can do it, that I am ready, that I have no worries about school...but really? It's terrifying. I am 29 years old and I am throwing myself into one of the most intense Nursings programs out there! Will I have enough time to work?, to play with my princess?, to snuggle my man? to even have a shower??? It's fear of the unknown...that's always been the issue. Once I'm in it, it will be ok....right?? I mean people don't die from Nursing school......

My baby turned 6 last week. We had a wonderful party and she was a perfect hostess. yikes...I suppose if 6 years can go by at the speed of light, I will manage 3. She seems to be growing everyday, I feel sad that I have to miss even a moment of that. I try to think about all of the fun times we will have when I work 4 on 4 off, get paid holidays, and make enough money to take her travelling. I'm doing this for us....kind of hard to explain to a 6 year old.....One day at a time......One day at a time.....